What if

Maybe there's something wrong with my head but suddenly I'm thinking about Yellow. The giraffe.
An information told me he'll be graduate from NTU next year. Well it's huge. He finally did it. I'm happy for  him, always, but it makes me thinking and wonder about so much thing right now.
It's a public knowledge in between my high school friends that the first reason why I'm crazy to go to Bandung last year is for him. My plan back then was studying in Bandung, wishing I could jump for couple of months in Singapore and renew my relationship with him. But what is happened in reality are so different. I met Red, out of love with Yellow, things happens, shits happens, I move back to Jakarta, my dream is over, my family is broken, I'm stuck in those fucking advertisement classes, being anti-social, kind of settle down with matters that needs to thinking about. No more Yellow, but still I wish all the best for him.
I wonder what if my first plan going well. Maybe that's perfect. Maybe I'm happy. Maybe, but just maybe, it's just a dream so I have to stop wondering.
Shut the fuck up, stupid brains.