Yesterday I accidentally ran to Yellow and see he's doing well. I think. It's been a while since I saw him that close, cause I actually can see he's smiling and chuckles, kinda miss the moments when I think that's the prettiest thing ever. Cause at that moment, all the pain in the necks like now is no exist and I'm just living my life, no worries, happy, optimistic and so passionate about what life could bring to me.
But now life is just like a shit. Nothing is good, everything just getting worse and I'm not happy with anything I have.Anyway now it's 11:11 and I don't know what to wish for. See? I don't even know what I actually want. Everything is a mess, I am a mess and I'm so damn tired, I need my girls but they're seems disappear, I need my boys but who's left after all?
I need my man. Even in distance (or it's because the distance?) surely he can't. Yes, that's sad.
Sometimes I don't think I can do this, I just wanna buy Juliet's poison and die for couple of days to see how shock people would be (if only they're still care) and get what I want when I wake up. Or maybe I'll have Romeo's, just die and stop living. Live is hurts. Live is all about the pain. And that's not nice. I'm still not happy.
So I wonder if I could turn back time, just turn back and being happy, live with no worries and imperfectly happy.
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