Without You - Lana Del Rey

Everything I want I have:
Money, notoriety and rivieras.
I even think I found God
In the flash bulbs of the pretty cameras,
Pretty cameras, pretty cameras.
Am I glamorous? Tell me am I glamorous?

Hello? Hello?
C-can you hear me?
I can be your china doll
If you want to see me fall.
Boy you’re so dope,
Your love is deadly.
Tell me life is beautiful,
They all think I have it all.
I’ve nothing without you.
All my dreams and all the lights mean
Nothing without you.

Summertime is nice and hot,
And my life is sweet like vanilla is.
Gold and silver line my heart
But burned into to my brain are these stolen images,
Stolen images, baby, stolen images.
Can you picture it
Babe the life we could’ve lived?

Hello? Hello?
C-can you hear me?
I can be your china doll
If you want to see me fall.
Boy you’re so dope,
Your love is deadly.
Tell me life is beautiful,
They all think I have it all.
I’ve nothing without you.
All my dreams and all the lights mean
Nothing without you.

We were two kids, just tryin’ to get out,
Live on the dark side of the American dream.
We would dance all night, play our music loud,
When we grew up nothing was what it seemed.

Hello? Hello?
Can you hear me?
I can be your china doll
If you want to see me fall.
Boy you’re so dope,
Your love is deadly.
Tell me life is beautiful,
They think that I have it all.
I’ve nothing without you.
All my dreams and all the lights mean
Nothing without you.

Hello? Hello?
Can you hear me?
I can be your china doll
If you want to see me fall.
Boy you’re so dope,
Your love is deadly.
Tell me life is beautiful,
They think that I have it all.
I’ve nothing without you.
All my dreams and all the lights mean
Nothing without you.

All my dreams and all the lights mean
Nothing if I can’t have you.

What Makes Me Really Excited Lately

Is something I have planned for years. Something I really love to see and I can't wait.
I catch cold and flu and crazy headache so crazy I could die. I can't decide whether I have to go to Communication Theories class today or not. My campus is 2 hours driving from home. I had to catch my bus, transit, wait for another bus, and take a metro for 30 minutes. That's crazy. Meanwhile, I only took the class twice this semester (too lazy to 2.30 PM class) and next week is mid-test already! Shoot!

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A blog about all my favorite quotes and songs, my feeling-show, doodles and my on-going novel. It simply dedicated to Red. It's Indonesian-language based and would make it easier to share in some way.

P.s.
And today, I love you too xoxo

Doodle Love

I simply miss him so bad, much more than I could say to the world. So all I could do is drawing but I still miss you so the waiting until we met again would be hard. I guess.

I'm Dying to Give You My Middle Finger!

She definitely a bitch and knows how to ruin a holiday. Double-faced dork. I hate you so much. I hate you all. Pray I'll leave this place soon.

Not much photos for a reunion, but never mind, we had fun.

Bocah galau nyanyi Someone Like You

Mata Glory mesum. She's back!

Beyond My Expectation

He said something once. But I thought that's just a little white lie, things he said just to makes me happy. And I never really believed in it, though it makes me smile for a while, until last night when I cried.

He used to say he loves me more than I could ever imagine, his love is beyond my expectation, beyond my actual feelings for him.

And I don't believe it. So life goes on and last week he went to my campus to pick me. We went for movies, date things like usual. But one thing unusual is his silence. And I really hate it. I know he left his assignments for this date, but I hate how he talks nothing and use that damn assignment as the reason. I tried to understand his point of view, but that's been month he act like this. I think that's alright but turns out it's not. I miss the chatty him, how he talks so much when we met.

He takes me home, and I off to bed, need a peace with myself. I called him when I woke up and tell him what's on my mind. How tired I was and how I was so close for asking a break of our relationship. The conversation ended well. I, as always, cry. And he, as always, calm me down and beg for the tears to stop.

When the mood gets better, he asked if I want a break. That was a huge surprise, why did he asked me back? His answer was totally blew my mind. It's huge, far beyond my abilities to understand how much I meant for him.

He said, "Well, I don't wanna lose you. I want you for my life.And if take a break for a while gonna makes you feel better and save our relationship for future, than I guess I have no choice. I want you till the end. And I've been open up about us to my family, right? My mom, my dad, my old sister, every one. I just want the best for us."

And that's how I knew it's true. He never lie since, well, you know. His words is true, his feeling is pure. No promises, just a straight action.

I'm sorry, dear. To doubt you, to think you didn't care. To everything. And thank you for always forgive me and take me as I am.

You know I love you too xoxo