Overthink

Maybe I overthink. I knew that. I asked too much but it's not something can resist.
Have you ever feel so down, your world are tear apart and feels like you have to hold yourself everytime go to sleep or you'll breaks into pieces? Have you found a milky way in your chest? Found yourself empty and numb, and somehow it feel worse than your greatest broken heart?
I've been there... for two years. And that's sucks. Pathetic. Totally sad and driving me insane. I hate if I have to losing anybody again.
Lose something/someone you really really love is pretty much hell and I love him, I know he meant so much for me as much as world did. I've been in crazy heartache and I never wanna that happen again to me. He's just too precious for me and I can't take another heartache. I'm not that strong.
I overthink and worries too much, I knew. I wish he didn't bothers, if he couldn't understand. I simply wants him to stay. Guess I should figure out how.
Beg him to wait is one of the option.