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26 May 2013

Lotte Kestner's


My baby baby
I want you so it scares me to death
I can't say anymore than "I love you"
Everything else is a waste of breath

I want you
You've had your fun you don't get well no more
I want you
Your fingernails go dragging down the wall
I want you
I woke up and one of us was crying
I want you
You said "little girl I do believe you're dying"
I want you
If you need a second opinion as you seem to do these days
You can look in my eyes and you can count the ways
I want you
Rob from always on the run is so bad and copy paste is a sin
I want you
Did you mean to tell me but seem to forget
I want you
Since when were you so generously inarticulate
I want you
It's the stupid details that my heart is breaking for
It's the way your shoulders shake and what they're shaking for
It's knowing that she knows you now after only guessing
It's the thought of her undressing you or you undressing
She tossed some tattered compliment your way
I want you
And you were fool enough to love it when she said
"I want you"
"I want you"

I want you
The truth can't hurt you it's just like the dark
It scares you witless
But in time you see things clear and stark
I want you
Go on and hurt me then we'll let it drop
I want you
I'm afraid I won't know where to stop
I'm not ashamed to say I cried for you
I want you

I want you
I might as well be useless for all it means to you
I want you
You've had your fun you don't get well no more
I want you
No-one else wants you could want you more
I want you
Every night when I go off to bed
And when I wake up
I want you

I want you
I'm going to say it once again 'til I instill it
I know I'm going to feel this way until you kill it

18 August 2012

A Little Poem to Dania

Couple days ago I met my deary friend Dania, had a good talk when she told me about a guy we loves and how things sometimes gets pretty confusing to understand. So I was in the bathroom on 5 pm and sang random tune, random words just to fill the shower time with something's good when I think of a word.
Constant battle. And it's like a machine I automaticly think of them. So here it is.


Constant Battle

You and I like a constant battle everyday
We fought for something we can't decide
We said we let things flow but we didn't
We act like two strangers when eyes really can't tell the truth

Like how we used to talk
Your silly jokes
My freak habits
And how our mutual weirdness blend so well
Like I have known you all of my life

I can feel your pain
Teary memories you told me with little fake smile
I wait you told me what's on your mind
But it seems like you didn't have one
Or even a heart to feel
Cause sometimes divided we stand, united we fall
And it didn't feel like falling too hard
When I'd rather feel a little pain than nothing at all
And for you it's all a mystery

I'm in constant battle everyday
Between things I want, and thing I need
About what feels right but probably wrong,
And what's right but pretty tough
Or none of it were true

And you're in constant battle all of your life
For things you can't feel and how you decide to let it show
When life treats you rough once,you dance in the rain
And turn everyone wrong into tears
Instead let them heal your pain


I wonder what it's gonna be like in months
After I left
And you stayed
And we
Us
Or is it just you, separately, me.


Shoot. I'm on vacation way too much I need to get a life.

16 August 2012

9 June 2012

Virtual Red

Sometimes (and I mean it's almost everytime) I had a little childish imagination when I played game online. For example, I played Roiworld dress up games everyday. And sometimes there's some scene of story in my wild imagination about girls in dress up games. Maybe they're a girlband, or an agent, or even just a random girl in summer.
So yesterday I played one of boyfriend dress up games, and there's a game with title "Hot Papa". And suddenly I wonder what Red and our child would look like. I know this is so silly. Totally. But I can't help so I capture some of them.

Picnic day's outfit.

Hangout's outfit.

Family gathering's outfit.

I played my Sims couple weeks ago and it's been months I ignore it. Bored. When I open it first there's some random message from Red's sims. Asked "Don't you love me?" cause I haven't visit him ever since. That's so funny and on my mind I was like, "What? I always loves you babe." Silly me.

2 May 2012

World We Live In

Vienna Court Opera, Vienna, Austria, 1902.
Stoic Japanese orphan, standing at attention having brought his dead younger brother to a cremation pyre, Nagasaki, by Joe O’Donnell 1945.
This photograph was taken by an American photojournalist, Joe O’Donnell, in Nagasaki in 1945.

He recently spoke to a Japanese interviewer about this picture:

“I saw a boy about ten years old walking by. He was carrying a baby on his back. In those days in Japan, we often saw children playing with their little brothers or sisters on their backs, but this boy was clearly different. I could see that he had come to this place for a serious reason. He was wearing no shoes. His face was hard. The little head was tipped back as if the baby were fast asleep.

“The boy stood there for five or ten minutes. The men in white masks walked over to him and quietly began to take off the rope that was holding the baby. That is when I saw that the baby was already dead. The men held the body by the hands and feet and placed it on the fire.

“The boy stood there straight without moving, watching the flames. He was biting his lower lip so hard that it shone with blood. The flame burned low like the sun going down. The boy turned around and walked silently away.”

Quaint second hand book store in Versailles.
Officer's ID Card.
Suicide Warning Signs
Vogue Korea, December 2011, Song Hye Kyo by Oh Joong Seok.
Michelle Williams by Chris Heath for GQ, February 2012

There is a question I have been wanting to understand the answer to, but have been feeling that I simply can’t ask. Eventually I just ask it anyway:

Do you think there was a part of you that imagined the two of you would somehow end up together?

Immediately, I wish that I hadn’t. The look on her face—a kind of juddering visceral alarm at what has been said…I don’t wish to see that look many more times in my life. “That would make me way too sad to answer,” she says quickly, and I hurriedly begin another question, about something completely different, hoping that if I say it fast enough these new words will chase the old words away from where they are hanging in the air between us, and maybe she will let me pretend that it was something I never said.

“No, no,” she says, and I can see the tears forming, and I think she means that she doesn’t want to answer any more questions about anything. I mutter some kind of apology under my breath.

But, even now, I’m wrong about everything. Mostly she is just trying to stop my new question. She has something to tell me.

“No,” she says. “I said it would make me too sad to answer but it’s also…”—and she nods even as her voice breaks once more with tears—”…one of my favorite things to imagine.” And through the tears, a beaming, almost beatific smile stretches room-wide across her face. “It’s actually one of my favorite places to visit.”

LZ Lambeau event in Green Bay to honor the Vietnam vets that were never properly welcomed home after thier tours of duty.
This was one Gold Star mother being helped by another Gold Star mother as she found her son’s name on the wall. I know its not the same as him coming home, but it takes my breath away when I think of the amazing dignity and grace this woman showed when they interviewed her. She even took her place on one of the motorcycles for the honor ride where over 1200 men and women rode to signify the number of wisconsin soldiers that never made it home.

The scene, part of the “Walk a Mile in her Shoes” event, was a sight to behold. Soldiers and civilians, mostly male, strapped on flashy red high heels and pushed strollers or carried their children in backpacks. Battle buddies teetered clumsily, holding onto each other for physical and even moral support.

Little sweet elephant.
A soldier in Iraq watch his baby born via webcam.

A tiger mother lost her cubs from premature labour. Shortly after she became depressed and her health declined, and she was diagnosed with depression. So they wrapped up piglets in tiger cloth, and gave them to the tiger. The tiger now loves these pigs and treats them like her babies.

Coco Chanel.

31 March 2012

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