1.5 years

I'm being jerk yesterday, like a jerk I ruin the moment of our one year and half anniversary. What a shame. And what makes me hate myself even more. So I made this just now, things I promise I will try my best to do the best.

For me. For him. For us.

And pray I will always do this and do wrong no more. To think about last night, how I was mad to small things and make him feel uncomfortable with me just so idiot. Stupid me. I hate myself right now, much more than everything I hate today.
So I wonder why we had so much fighting lately. Sometimes his words hurts me, sometimes mine hurts him. It's crazy why the hell on earth we did those things? We hurt each other and that's not what we should do in good relationship. We made promises but we broke some of it. I always said how tired to live in the porch of hell (read: my life) and he always like, "But you gotta be patient, you'll have to wait cause it's not gonna last forever" and I'm like.... bored. I hate how "be patient" and "keep waiting" or "live your life" always be the answer. I hate because all of them is true.