Counting Down The Days - Natalie Imbruglia

You were right
And I don't wanna be here
If your gonna be there
Was that supposed to happen

I'll hold tight
I'll remember to smile
Though it has been a while
And without you does it matter

There's no room
No place to start
When our souls are apart

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
Hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here
I'm counting down the days

How you've been
It's just the usual here
And days are feeling like years
And every day's without you

Now I cry
Just a little too much
When I think of your touch
And everything about you

I feel cold
I'm in the dark
When our souls are apart

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
Hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
Hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here
I'm counting down the days

I'm counting down the days
I'm counting down the days

I'm gonna be your surprise
I'm gonna hold you so tight

Yeah

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
I'd hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
I'd hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here
A million miles away from here

Bruno Mars - It Will Rain

If you ever leave me baby, leave some morphine at my door
Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have, we don’t have it anymore

There’s no religion that could save me, no matter how long my leaves are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I’m making
To keep you by my side, and keep you from walking out the door


Cause there’ll be no sunlight, if I lose you baby
There’ll be no clear skies, if I lose you baby
Just like the clouds pass, I would do the same
If you walk away, everything will rain, rain, rain.

I’ll never be your mother's favourite, your daddy can’t even look me in the eyes
If I was in their shoes I'd be doing the same thing
Saying there goes my little girl, walking with that troublesome guy

But they're just afraid of something they can’t understand
But little darling watch me change their minds
Yeah for you, I’ll try, I’ll try, I’ll try, I’ll try
I’ll pick up these broken pieces till I’m bleeding, if that’ll make it right

Cause there’ll be no sunlight, if I lose you baby
There’ll be no clear skies, if I lose you baby
Just like the clouds pass, I would do the same
If you walk away, everything will rain, rain, rain.

Don’t you say, goodbye, don’t you say, goodbye,
I’ll pick up these broken pieces till I’m bleeding, if that’ll make it right.

Cause there’ll be no sunlight, if I lose you baby
There’ll be no clear skies, if I lose you baby
Just like the clouds pass, I would do the same
If you walk away, everything will rain, rain, rain.

I'm scared that I'll keep repeating them and they will lose their meaning

Ads Student

So yesterday I officially being an advertisement student. I gotta start a whole things form zero and it's not that easy. It's even kinda sucks.
But my friend Dania said something really nice that I've heard from people. She said, "Everything happens for a reason. And the reason why you got into this big trouble is for your relationship with Red. Thinks what if you're doing just fine but the bond of you two isn't that strong as much as now."
So I think I'm gonna move on and live a new life. He loves me, HE loves me, every little things is going to be alright!
Breathe, smile, fight.

Stupid things I did when I was a little

1. Pretending I'm poisoned when I ate an apple just like Snow White
2. Well I honestly little bit afraid to watch Snow White and how the Queen tried to kill her
3. Hates Bamby cause my mother like, recommend that movies when I'm dying to watch Japanese's Doraemon or some local comedy (which is harsh for kids)
4. Afraid of dark and night
5. Thinks I'm going to marry my childhood pal Odie cause I kissed his cheeks for birthday
6. Loves my grandmother's daily tea and chocolate milk and how I always found them when I open the fridge
7. Dreaming to be a pilot one day. And painter.
8. Thinks that rains is comes from Heaven's toilet
9. Actually believes in Santa Claus. Believes that every Dec 5th, I gotta put grasses on my shoes so Rudolf can eat that and Santa will come for Christmas. And thinks I'm a bad kid when I don't get exactly what I want for Christmas.
10. Believes that one day, someone will come, loves me and marry me (when I got pissed with Odie)
11. Thinks it's totally cool to go home by yourself (and then all families, my mom, my dad, my grandma, and my aunt warn me not to)
12. Thinks pink is for girl, blue is for boy, yellow/orange is pink's sidekick, green is for boy's sidekick, red is for a man but if a girls wear them she looks silly.
13. Fell in love with Red Ranger from Power Rangers. I wanna be the pink one so I can marry Red Ranger.
14. Afraid of man who had a long hair
15. Afraid to be in a mall when it's night
16. Loves ice cream
17. Hates Math
18. Sing ABC songs almost everyday, every time I saw ABC board hanging on my door. 'A B C D E F G H I J K L M O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z, now I know the ABC, la la la la la la la' well I forgot the last line.
19. Loves Pokemon. And get scary when I had a bad dream about how one of Pokemon tried to kill my little bro.
20. Percaya kalo polisi tidur itu sebenarnya makam hansip yang dulu kerja di lingkungan daerah tersebut #anakbodoh

Makin diterusin makin keliatan bloonnya gue. Udah ah.

Memories of BWJF 2010

Gue iseng googling nama gue dan gue ketemu artikel ini. Udah setahun sejak gue nulis artikel ini di backstage sembari nungguin beres-beres. Gue lagi duduk di ruang panitia, ngelurusin kaki yang super capek saat seorang kru (yang nggak gue ketahui namanya secara krunya banyak banget dan memori gue sangat terbatas), cowok 27 tahunan (om om!!!!!) , mendadak random dan minta pendapat gue. Gue mengungkapkan pedapat gue dan karena dia pusing, akhirnya dia meninggalkan lapotopnya di gue dan mmepercayakan isi penulisan ke gue.
Ini artikelnya, diambil dari sini.

Hear The World Through The Jazz
2010-11-06 08:28:59

Hear the world through the jazz.
Orang-orang sering mengatakan bahwa musik adalah bahasa universal. Dan dengan kepercayaan ini, Bandung World Jazz 2010 terjalin. Jazz tak hanya sekedar aliran musik, namun juga sebuah kontak verbal antara ribuan orang di dunia akan satu inspirasi yang sama yaitu alunan musik.
Sebagian orang menganggap jazz sulit dipahami, namun sekiranya mereka salah. Jazz merupakan aliran musik terluas. Tak ada aturan yang membatasi sebuah lagu sehingga bisa dikatakan jazz atau tidak. Smooth jazz, jazz kontemporer, pop-jazz dan lain sebagainya. Ini adalah sebuah bukti bagaimana ribuan orang dengan segala perbedaannya ternyata memiliki satu persamaan yang sukar disadari.
Bukti bahwa jazz telah menyatukan banyak perbedaan telah tampak pada hari pertama event Bandung World Jazz 2010. Mukhlis, manajer sekaligus keyboardist grup Kolegium Musikum Unimed asal Medan, mengaku bukan pakar dunia jazz sekalipun telah menjadi alumni BWJF 2010. Bersama kelompoknya, ia hanya berkumpul dengan hasrat untuk bermusik.
"Kami diundang untuk bermain di Makassar bulan depan," kisah Mukhlis dengan senyum sumingrah, beberapa saat setelah turun dari panggung.
Sepertinya ini hanyalah bukti kecil bagaimana musik bisa menyatukan semua orang dan membuat dunia mereka para musisi di dengar oleh dunia yang sebenarnya lewat alunan melodi bernama jazz.

Maria Indriya Hapsari
LO Talent BWJF 2010

Oh how I miss everything about Bandung!
Anyway tahun ini Red jadi koordinator. Little bit jealous though I wish all the best for him. Still... jealous. How he lived the life I should still have, a life I'm dying to have. Something I would kill for it.

Revenge

I am pissed.
I gotta start all over again and I want to do before that is make sure you got your karma. But I know it's not possible, so I think I'm gonna have my own revenge plan. I'm dying to ruin your life better than how you did it to me. I wants to slap you in the face, embarrassed you in public, make your life like a hell. And no, I don't believe in karma for this subject. I hate how I can't give you my revenge, so I'm gonna do it anyway.
Just wait and see. You'll regret what you've done to me, knowing you're wrong to pick me as your enemy.
Bitch.

Flowery Floral

Book: All My Friends are Dead

Kate Moss Fab Wed

So pretty!
Iyalah secara fotografernya Mario Testino... bikin sirik abis...

IT (I wish your initial was ET)

I used to think one day I'm gonna write a good story about us. About how cool you used to look in my eyes, how much I admire you and fantasize about fairy tales about us. I made a playlist with songs that used to describe my feelings and thoughts about you, songs that used to be played all day long while I was thinking about you, but not about us cause that sounds not possible.
Today as I wait Red (and for sure, he never call like I wish he would). I play solitaire (so lonely) and I play that old playlist on just because I hate silents and for a minute I realize it's all your songs. It's Adele's Chasing Pavements, Melt My Heart to Stone, David Archie's To Be With You, Katy Perry's Mannequin and finally.
Daughtry's Over You. That's your last song (I hate to admit thre truth, Barry Manillow's Even Now, so never mind).
So let's say, today I'm thinking about you. But I just remember how we used to be so close and yet so far. I remember when you say hi with my middle name that I used to hate (and since you call me with that, I started to like it). I remember how fast my heart races when you put your hand on my shoulder and asked about my exam (and that's the first time I was so embarrassed cause I got the worst score like, ever). I remember how you get cold in the middle of ceremony on Church and how worried I was.
That's the same worry that I felt for Red right now when he ill. And no, I don't think I'm gonna feel the same thing again to you, as all my worries, wishes and dream is all on Red.
It's not like I miss you and want to see you. No, I prefer to meet Red for a second than have you for a week. It's just like... I miss you as my memory. I used to think you are the biggest heartache I ever feel. It turns out that you're not. My biggest fear now is Red, and all feelings, wishes and fantasy that I used to pray I'd do it all with you was changing. It's Red and the good thing is, it's not a fairy tales. It's coming-soon-happy-ending.
I'm so glad I met you, fall for you and hurts. Cause if I don't, how am I supposed to know that there's a great guy who loves me as much as I do?
I wish you well, IT. And thank you.

How to talk like Shakespeare!

I have 5 fingers for a reason

Julie Andrews and Christopher Plummer - Something Good

[Maria:]
Perhaps I had a wicked childhood
Perhaps I had a miserable youth
But somewhere in my wicked, miserable past
There must have been a moment of truth

For here you are, standing there, loving me
Whether or not you should
So somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good

Nothing comes from nothing
Nothing ever could
So somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good

[Captain:]
For here you are, standing there, loving me
Whether or not you should

[Maria:]
So somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good

[Maria and the Captain:]
Nothing comes from nothing
Nothing ever could

[Maria:]
So somewhere in my youth
[Captain:]
Or childhood
[Maria:]
I must have done something . . .
[Maria and the Captain:]
Something good

Ah how I love this song. And the meaning! I must have done something good to deserve Red in my life.

Rolling Stones - Streets Of Love

Man, I fell in love with this song ever since...

Things I love : Bears!

Girlfriend is good, but best friend is great.

Last night I stay awake till 11 pm though I'm so tired and definitely need a long sleep. But I ran out pulse and he haven't called yet when somehow I believe he will. I was stand by in my room just in case he call for like five hours and when he finally called, a big big relief comes through me chest and the waiting, I guess, it's worth to do. I'm happy instead.
We talk about his days, how he get so much task to do and at that moment I swear we were infinite. Always. It's like a feelings I always get whenever I talk to him, when we holding hands, when we kiss and thoughts about it always made me happy like I never been so happy before. It feels like I'm not a girlfriend, but also a best friend. The one who'll listen to him anytime he want. Even if he's call me in 3 am I'm surely do will listen though my eyes gonna be soo swelled.
I'm his best friend. And that's the happiest things I love in this relationship.
Anyway. I can't help but notice how different he had changed in past 6 months. Like, he was lazy and now when I heard how he talk about weekly schedule and future plans, it's like talking to a very different person. And it's kinda cool actually cause there's 3 moments when he looks cool in my eyes (and he didn't even have to try!) is when he's praying, when he works/studied hard and get concentrate, and when he fight for something he believe, like manners or thoughts.
It's gonna be a very busy time for him but I wish all the best for him.

xoxo my dear smelly goat!

September 2011

Here we go again. It's September.
I remember how hard it's been when I try to move on and let go (well, let go something I never actually had) last September. I wonder why there's always a crazy month in every year of my life when something happen. Can't live just be normal for a while?
So it's the first of September 2011 and all I can say I wish for the best. Today when I wake up in the morning, a vision of Red had comes and God, I miss him so bad. So when the emptiness comes, I just close my eyes and try to please myself, knowing I'll have him in the end of this month.
Anyway its been a year since he asked me to be his. I gotta say I'm really proud of this relationship. We're getting stronger day by day and thank God, we loves each other more today than yesterday.
I love you like a world, Red. xoxo