But someone told me something. A truth, maybe, and that's wasn't nice to knowing your boyfriend made a jokes about your relationship. I would never do that, so why did he? It hurts, you know. It's sad to heard from other people how he asked what if he's going out with any girl.
Seriously, what kind of person would do that? A player and a boy, maybe, but I thought he's different. I actually believe he's different, that he had changed and be more mature.But please, what is that supposed to mean? That's seriously not funny. This is the first time (maybe?) I am so damn mad at him. I called him but I think he's too tired and fell asleep, but thank God, maybe it's a way cause I won't call him anymore. For a while.
I know he's tired and hectic so I won't say anything at least until Friday. Or Saturday. I'm so disappointed and sad and tired and tears stop came out as I'm just a way too tired to feel tired and cry all night long.
Sometimes I think we're often fool ourselves and says it's love just because we're end up lonely if we were apart. I turn off my phone just to check on myself how long I can stand days without him.
Is it too much? Days goes by and there's something changed. yet I can't figure it out but I can feel it. I just can't say it clearly. Maybe it's the way we're talk, or maybe there's something more.
Yes I know I'm not perfect. I'm not an ideal dream girl. I'm fat, I'm ugly, I'm stupid, I'm weird, you name it. But I love him, and I wonder if that's not enough.
He said I'm just fine. I'm pretty on my own, and well, I'm flattered and believe what he said. I just believe it. And now suddenly I heard what my friends said to me, things I always ignore as I believe in him.
He's still a boy after all. But I don't believe he's like the others. He's different, though I don't have so much experience in dating or what but I know he's different.Boys just a boys. Boys still a boy.
I used to think he's so precious and he's mine to keep. After what I heard today, I wonder if I made a right decision to believe... or it's the biggest mistake in my life.
I love him and I never want to let him go. But I don't wanna look weak and being stupid.
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