I'm sad, pathetic and gloomy, and pathetic.

Why, all of sudden, I smell fears of commitment on me?

I know he had a hard time lately, with all those paperwork and orientation week and stuff. I know that's exactly why he's good at silent for days. But what makes me sadder is the reason why he didn't talk is because he's way too much think how I'm gonna react. I'm not say he's over-reacting. It's pathetic, and that's me.

I'm so tired. Way much too tired to carry another burden and I don't even know, still I don't know how to figure this out and make things right.

He tried. I know. But I'm afraid to realize something I never thought I'm able to do.