The Very Last Goodbye

So lately I notice that two of my friend are on her way to move on, forget the past and have some new love life. They knew what I've been going through in last three years, how hard I've been try and put the biggest efforts to get over with my past. How I make a little last try and failed, how I've been struggle with myself. Blame myself for not doing well, disappoint with myself and family's rules, mad with no one but my diary. I gotta admit that it's damn tough. And now I'm happy for them, too, cause they finally find a good way to move on. At least the bad things didn't come to them all at once like me.

Couple days ago I found a good song with a very beautiful yet strong lyric. The singer named Nina Girado, she's Philippines, and the tittle is 'Someday'. Here the lyrics:

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see through my eyes
But then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if I can't

I know
You don't really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, I want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

But now
I know you can't tell
I'm down,and I'm not down anyway
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, I want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

And that was perfectly fit for me. Even now the song woulds still be perfect for me, just to remind me about how strong I actually am. Someday, someone's gonna love me the way I want you to need me. Yes. I'm proving that song right now.

Today I was chat with my bestie and she asked me about my love life. It's perfect enough though it's not, I answered. Cause when I have someone to hold my hands when I'm afraid and make me laugh in the middle of blue days, I won't even think about someone who will never love me back.

So now it's official. Goodbye Singapore's Flyer. I won't even notice you from now on.

And Red, I ♥ you that much. More than I can say in words, more than I could show in my panics.