What's Gonna Happen in 6 Months?

There's a  lot of thing on my mind all at once.
Mostly about how much I miss Red. I miss him. A LOT. And everyday I'm waiting for July 15th to know where he's gonna be for 6 months till December for semester internship. I'll be glad for sure if he's in Jakarta. But if he's not that's gonna be another tough months in distance, again. I hope he's in Jakarta, but above all of my wishes, I wish all the best for him. That's what matter.
I can't help my wild imagination to come about what it will be in next 6 months. If he's in Jakarta, I bet it's gonna be totally fun and lots of love in the air. But if he's not here, that's gonna be tough. For me, at least. I know we've been through something like that before last year. We made it through, but that's doesn't mean I ever wanna feel that way anymore. Thta's a mixture of sadness, pain, tears and urge to meet cause I miss him  bdaly every single night, with another mellow late phone call, talks about future and stuff. That's sad.
I know sooner or later we're gonna be apart. Not to mention this 6 months internship, but his plan to work in cruise after graduation as well. And when that time is come, 6 months of longest distance in Indonesia's gonna be nothing, it'll feel just like a slight slice of pain.
Maybe I had get used to these distance, 127 km of Bandung and Jakarta. And maybe distance between us itself. It's far comforting to know he's sleep in familiar places at night. Yes I know he's 21, he's a big tough guy and can't handle things himself. But it's a motherhood feeling inside of me, though I'm his girlfriend and I had no idea how I feel such feelings and affection. Worries, loving, caring.
He gave me such funny feelings I've never felt ever since I was born. And he makes me feel like I have never loved anyone before him, in case I had for crazy 9 years. But as the ex of "girl whom waiting too long", 9 years feel nothing like this. It's nothing. Next August will be our 2nd anniversary but sometimes it feels like I have loved him for a very long time. And this guy, well, I'm crazy about him. Insanity level for 9 years, well, multiple it. I'm totall crazy for this guy, and lived near with him, to be with him and spend the rest of my life is something I'm looking forward. I couldn't be more exciting.
Maybe I write too much of how much I loved him. Anyway.
I wish it's a good new I'll hear on July 15th.