3 Doors Down - Here Without You (Boyce Avenue acoustic cover) on iTunes

A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I've saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rollin
as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope that it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know,
and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls,
when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Addicted - Enrique Iglesias

Have I told you how good it feels to be me when I'm in you?
I can only stay clean when you are around
Don't let me fall
If I close my eyes forever would it ease the pain?
Could I breathe again?

Maybe I'm addicted
I'm out of control
But you're the drug that keeps me from dying
Maybe I'm a liar
But all I really know is you're the only reason I'm trying

I am wasted away, I made a million mistakes
Am I too late?
There is a storm in my head it rains on my bed when you are not here
I'm not afraid of dying, but I am afraid of losing you

Maybe I'm addicted
I'm out of control
But you're the drug that keeps me from dying
Maybe I'm a liar
But all I really know is you're the only reason I'm trying

When you're lying next to me love is going through to me
Oh it's beautiful.
Everything is clear to me
Till I hit reality and I lose it all
I lose it all

You're the only reason
Yeah, you're the only reason I'm trying
Oh, I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying
Don't want to lose it all, don't want to lose it all,
I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying ...
Yeah, you know I'm addicted
You know I'm addicted
Yeah, you know I'm addicted

Tell me everything is gonna be alright in the end

They said love will find a way. I wonder how long it takes.
I feel so down. I cry like someone throw flames to me, I'm sad like I never hurts before because I love like I never ever love no one before.
Love surely will find a way, right? Tell me that's true cause I desperately need assurance about this, things I never ever want to lose.
I wonder what he thinks about me right now, after all these shits happen. I wonder what he really feel and what he's gonna do abut this.
It's August 20th. 8 days more to our first anniversary.
We supposed to be together.

I have a dream

Someday, I don't know when but someday, I wish it would comes true.
I'll have a nice little place on my own, have a good job with good income and have some puppy. I'll live in the same city with him and live about a block from him, so we could have dinner together and spending some time together, even if we were so busy.

I try to think about it again, and then I realize I had no other dream. I have my ambition on works and what I want to do, but nothing much more happier than my little wish to be with him.

Stevie Wonder - I'm Gonna Make you Love Me (with Diana Ross)

Gosh I love this song and it's so hard to find where I can download it!!!

I can't wait to kiss you *shy*

Between The Trees - We Can Try

What would you say if I told you that all I've thought about
Is you since you've been gone?
I wish in ways, somehow I could turn this world right back around
And mend mistakes I've made

So I could say to you that
I know, things aren't quite like what they used to be,
Different faces, different places
Yeah we can try, oh, yeah we can try

What would you say if I told you I'm not giving up
However long it takes
It's clear that things have changed since when we started
But we can't just walk away babe

So I am telling you that,
I know things aren't quite like what they used to be.
Different faces, different places
Yeah we can try, oh, yeah we can try

I know things aren't like what they used to be
Different places, different faces
Yeah we can try, oh, yeah we can try

I know things aren't quite like what they used to be
Different faces, Different places
Yeah we can try, oh, we can try

I know things aren't quite like what they used to be
Different places, different faces
Yeah we can try, oh, yeah we can try

I know things aren't quite like what they used to be
Different places, different faces
Yeah we can try, oh, yeah we can try

We can try

I feel different.

I said we're changing though I know we're not. I don't know how to say this but the truth is I feel so lonely. As ever. I assume he will be there for me. But he can't. I miss that part.

So I think lesson learned. Never expect things. Cause I did and when it comes bad, it hurts instead. And it's nobody faults. It's just natural. It's things that would happen sooner or later. He can't answer the phone, maybe someday I'll do the same thing too. He had his own life, a lifestyle I'm dying to have cause I already had it once, lifestyle I wish I could have again. But I can't. And even I'm willing to give up everything I had to have it back, I can't. You just can't turn back the time as if greatest magician cannot wake the dead people up.

Being individual is good. For me. Knowing there's nobody out there for me makes me realize the only one who can hold myself is the only me, cause knowing there's someone and they can make it when I need them most is sucks.

I know I'm acting silly. He's trying and giving me the best of him. I should appreciate it more. I'm the one who said to thinking about his feeling too cause this whole relationship isn't just about me. I guess I'm only saying things I wants to be, not things I am. I'm trying, too.

It's not easy. The distance matters getting sucks. But I hear a song today and I think, we can try.

An after all, I just realize why I act like such a pain in ass. Why I nagging and angry just because he can answer my phone: cause I love him. I need him always. And I miss him everyday.

I miss my girlfriends part.2: thinking of them makes me miss them even more!!!

Barusan si Glory SMS gue, nanyain gimana kalo hari Sabtu ini dia, Jeni sama Resky dateng main ke rumah. Sialan. Hari Sabtu ini gue (sepertinya) semacam sibuk karena keluarga gue ada acara. Kebetulan banget gue baru bangun dan semalem gue mimpiin mereka.
First reaction: it really damn hurts to know how they will come over and I can't. Stupid event.
Gue kangen banget sama mereka karena di dunia ini, nggak ada sahabat lain yang gue miliki selain mereka semua. Dua geng sahabat gue tersayang, geng Marsud(Glory, Resky, Jeni, Niya) dan geng Tarki(Andia, Olive, Patcy). Tujuh orang ini berharga setengah mati buat gue. Masih ada beberapa orang yang juga temen baik gue and I consider them as my good pal, tapi enam orang ini bener-bener orang yang berarti buat gue. Tujuh orang inilah yang care sama gue, berbagi semuanya sama gue dan ada banyak sekali momen dimana kita ngalamin sejuta pengalaman gila barengan.
Gue kangen mereka!!! Kangen mampus!!!
Dan gue terjebak di tempat bernama penjara ini. Guantanamo banget :(

Our greatest glory is not never falling, but rising every time we fall

I miss my girlfriends

I try to let it go and move on.
In the same time, I try to hold on.
It feels like falling slowly, torn apart into pieces or maybe both of it. I can barely sleep at night, lose my appetite, my faith and spirits like scatter, turn into dust and fly away to nowhere.
It's been 6 months and the pain still the same. And it's not all about the pain, but the emptiness too. I lost everything I used to had all at once.
I lost everything but love. Well, at least I don't lost that. I cannot imagine what my life would be then. Maybe I already dead literally.
It's funny cause I don't know what to say. If I say, "I lost everything I had." That's not entirely true cause my relationship with Red getting stronger.
If I say, "I lost all my friends and I feel so, so lonely." But Red is my bestfriend and we are on the phone everyday.
It may sounds greedy which I think I'm not cause I think it's logic if you were in my position, but Red and all of my friends are not the same. It's different. He's the guy (and soon become man) I really loves and nobody could take his place, ever, and all I want is stay right next to him like forever and a day. But I'm a 19 years old girl and still need girlfriends to hug. They have been so supportive to me but they... are they. They won't ask me how I'm doing continually like Red did. Well they don't love me with L for the way they look at me.
Maybe I'm lonely cause I miss all mt girlfriend.
But thanks God, I'm the lucky one to have the best boyfriend ever like Red ;) Still, there's something left to be thankful for.

Ah, she can smile.

Even the smile looks awkward somehow...
Wait. Is that a smile or not?

Katie Kirkpatrick's Story: The Cancer Bride

Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, held off cancer to celebrate the happiest day of her life. Katie had chased cancer, once only to have it return-to clog her lungs and grab hold of her heart. Breathing was difficult now, she had to use oxygen. The pain in her back was so intense it broke through the morphine that was supposed to act as a shield. Her organs were shutting down but it would not stop her from marrying Nick Godwin, 23, who was in love with Katie since 11th grade.

Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, holds some of her daily medication for several minutes before taking them as she waves in and out of sleep because of the morphine she takes while sitting in the livingroom of the familly home in Metamora on January 11, 2005. Katie has cancer of the lungs.

Katie is in a lot of pain in the days leading to her wedding taking morphine and numerous medications to help her. Niki Kirkpatrick,right, took a leave of abscence from work so she can take care of her daugther Katie who now needs constant assistance.

Nick Godwin, 23, left, takes a moment of rest while his bride Katie Kirkpatrick, right, gets an intravenous procedure to reduce the amount of fluids her body is retaining at McLaren Regional Medical Center in Flint on January 12, 2005. Nick Godwin who works night shift as a Lapeer County Sheriff's deputy took Katie to the medical center after a night's work, three days before their wedding.

Katie Kirkpatrick walks past a photograph of herself when she was homecoming queen at Lapeer East High School where she also was a co-valedictorian. the photograph sits on a table in her familly's home livingroom in Metamora on January 11, 2005.

Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, puts on some hearings a few minutes before walking down the aisle to marry Nick Godwin, 23, who she had known since 11th grade, at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.

Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, and Nick Godwin, 23, cuddle up for a moment while waiting for the wedding photographer to get ready after getting married at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.

Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, and Nick Godwin, 23, a Lapeer County Sheriff's deputy whom she first met when he was in 11th grade, get married at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.

Dave Kirkpatrick gives the thumbs up to his new son in law while admiring the couple with his wife Niki Kirkpatrick, right, after Nick and Katie got married at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.

Katie Kirkpatrick Godwin, right, gets serenaded by her new husband Nick Godwin, and his best men during the wedding party on the dance floor at Boulder Point Golf Club and Banquet Center in Oxford, MI, on Saturday January 15, 2005.

Katie Kirkpatrick Godwin, center, rests for a few moments during her wedding party at Boulder Point Golf Club and Banquet Center in Oxford, MI, on Saturday January 15, 2005. Katie was exhausted. Her face looked as white as her gown.

Five days later, Katie died. She did not let sickness stop her from living, take away the hope or faith that made her believe she had a future. She had a lovely wedding and she had love and she gave love and love doesn' t die. And that is how Katie beat cancer.

Paulo Coelho's Veronica Decides To Die

Red's current favorite song

meskipun aku di surga mungkin aku tak bahagia
bahagiaku tak sempurna bila itu tanpamu

lama sudah kau menemani langkah kaki di sepanjang
perjalanan hidup penuh cerita
kau adalah bagian hidupku dan akupun menjadi bagian
dalam hidupmu yang tak terpisah

kau bagaikan angin di bawah sayapku
sendiri aku tak bisa seimbang
apa jadinya bila kau tak di sisi

meskipun aku di surga mungkin aku tak bahagia
bahagiaku tak sempurna bila itu tanpamu
aku ingin kau menjadi bidadariku di sana
tempat terakhir melabuhkan hidup di keabadian

bila nanti aku kehilangan, mungkin itu hanya sesaat
karena ku yakin kita kan bertemu lagi

Not now, maybe someday we will.

Be patient and tough; someday this pain will be useful

Late Night Thoughts

Sometime late at night I'm wide awake. You're sleeping peacefully in your bed, some faraway place from here.
Sometime late at night I wonder if you dreamed of me like I did, if you think of me before you fell asleep. I wonder how much I really means to you.
Sometime late at night I play musics which reminds me about us. Some love happy songs, some acoustic-calm songs. And I played to cheers the pain of separation in the rest.
Sometime late at night I wonder if tomorrow never comes, or what if I could skip years further so when I open my eyes from my sleep, I could find you right next to me.
Sometime late at night I go online, play our songs and looking at your picture. Call me pathetic, it's the only way to see you right.
Sometime late at night I close my eyes and wonder what will happen to us in months further. I wish we're alright, I wish we keep our minds right and the bounds will never be broken.
Sometime late at night I think about us.
And every time I go to sleep, I think of you.

He's not perfect. Me either.

He isn't going to quote poetry, he's not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break.
Don't hurt him. Don't change him. Don't expect more than he can give. Don't analyze.

Sounds real and good. My love isn't a fairytale anyway.

Heartless

I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me

How could you be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know...
I decided we weren't gon' speak so

Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

Carla Bruni - Quelqu'un M'a Dit (with English Translation)

Quelqu’un M’a Dit (Someone Told Me)

Someone told me that our lives aren't a big thing
They pass on the instant as discolor roses
Someone told me that the time that pass is a bastard
that is making topcoats from our grief
However someone said to me...

Who do you still love,
This is someone have told me that you still love me
Is it possible then?

Someone told me that the destiny is scoffing at us
Don't give us anything and that promise us everything
Appear that the happiness is only for the reach hands
Then they tighten the hand and find themselves crazy
But someone have told me...

Who do you still love,
This is someone have told me that you still love me
Is it possible then?

But who can tell me that today you are loving me?
I don't remember more it was late in the night,
I'm still hearing the voice, but I don't see anymore the points
"He loves you, it's a secret, don't tell him that I tell you"
You see, someone told me...

Who do you still love, he really told me...
Who do you still love, is it possible then?

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Breakfast at Tiffany's

I have always love Audrey ever since <3

Her Bouqet

But personally my dream wedding bouquet is a bunch of white lily :)