You said you love me. I took a smile and glad cause you do, though I'm not so sure if you literally do. Then you asked me if I love you. And I'm speechless, I don't know what to say.
Should I say yes? That's probably true.
Or should I say no, to think about possibility of pain if I say yes.
And when we're in silence, without any logical reason, I said I love you. Maybe I just want to say it to fill the emptiness. Or maybe I said it cause I want to. Or maybe that's the truth.
It's nice to heard you love me too, as you replied my words.
But did you know, what am I thinking in my head? Things that somehow, I can't say though I really want to?
In my head I keep thinking: "So now you know that I love you like I said before, please don't go breaking my heart and make me regret what I've said a minute ago, dear. Don't make me think that what you said is a crap if only someday, you drowning me in my own tears.. again."
And even though you said love, I don't really believe it. Cause there's couple of time when you say you do, you're not cause I've seen what you've done.
Do I sounds mean cause I have a thoughts like this? Maybe. But I think it's alright if it's hard for me to believe if you were me. Twice too many times.
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