Haunted

Days feels like years to me lately since he moved to Bali. Every night we talk for two hours (or less if we're just too tired and sleepy) about everything. And sometimes I don't know what to say cause we ran out topics and we both know how we feels and we know there's nothing we can about it. We just have to wait.And it's not an easy thing to do.

Anywho, there's an issues we gave a lot of thought lately. And that's not nice. Well I mean for future, ours. We both know that's imposibble but still we thinking about it and it affect us so much burden in mind. I think I won't let bad things happen, and I belive it's better if one sink than two lifes ruin. It's better is one make a sacrafices and leave another for good. That's me. I can't let this ruin his life. Mine already worse, my dream already broken and I think it's better to leave all the troubles with me, not him. Sure he won't, he thinks we have to sticks together for better for worse. I believe in hin, and I want to share all tears and smile with him, too. But that doesn't mean I have a heart to ruin his life, right?

I keep telling myself that it's doesn't matter cause that were really not possible. But still I think about it. And it's kinda haunting, scary me.