I get my money back

Love is a game for two. So whenever I think about my love story, I really wish I could say 'us' or 'we' whenever I miss those memories. It's pretty odd and pretty creepy even for myself cause it sounds crazy that you love someone who don't love you for years. Thank God it's over. Couple week ago I realize that he doesn't mean anything for me anymore and I knew that he's not the one (though I wish that he was). Time's up and I decide to let it go.

That freak little boy had changed my life. That's how it started, with one sight of his existence he change my way of thinking, my perspective of love and life.

But when I let it go, I feel nothing. I don't waste any tears, somehow I felt so relief that I finally can move on and erase something I thought I can never able to forget. I saw him with my own eyes last week, after a long, crazy and weary year with so many question in my head, "Could I make it? Is there any hope lefts for me? How much the possibility I have?". It's crazy to be numb after those hectic years where there's a time when i miss him badly, when I cry to my sleep as a fool and blah blah blah. Guess you don't wanna hear it, so named it instead.

I saw him for about a hour and half, and all I think about is some sentences. "I get my money back", and "nothing to lose". I just wonder if love is a show, God is the host. He's the star and I'm the audience. Those who enjoyed the show wouldn't mind to pay the ticket, but those who don't like it could back to the ticket box and get some return.

I get my money back. And I get my strength back, too. Holding on maybe the best way when you can't let someone go but trust me, let it go feels so good. And empty, sure. But someone will come. Someone who'll love me, too.

I didn't get what I want but at least I still have what I had before. What a relief.

P.s.

Why its so hard to find songs about saying 'I'm over you', 'I'll forget you', 'I'll let you go' or something positive for people who'd just let someone go away for their own sake? Gee.