Barusan si Glory SMS gue, nanyain gimana kalo hari Sabtu ini dia, Jeni sama Resky dateng main ke rumah. Sialan. Hari Sabtu ini gue (sepertinya) semacam sibuk karena keluarga gue ada acara. Kebetulan banget gue baru bangun dan semalem gue mimpiin mereka.
First reaction: it really damn hurts to know how they will come over and I can't. Stupid event.
Gue kangen banget sama mereka karena di dunia ini, nggak ada sahabat lain yang gue miliki selain mereka semua. Dua geng sahabat gue tersayang, geng Marsud(Glory, Resky, Jeni, Niya) dan geng Tarki(Andia, Olive, Patcy). Tujuh orang ini berharga setengah mati buat gue. Masih ada beberapa orang yang juga temen baik gue and I consider them as my good pal, tapi enam orang ini bener-bener orang yang berarti buat gue. Tujuh orang inilah yang care sama gue, berbagi semuanya sama gue dan ada banyak sekali momen dimana kita ngalamin sejuta pengalaman gila barengan.
Gue kangen mereka!!! Kangen mampus!!!
Dan gue terjebak di tempat bernama penjara ini. Guantanamo banget :(
12 August 2011
I miss my girlfriends
I try to let it go and move on.
In the same time, I try to hold on.
It feels like falling slowly, torn apart into pieces or maybe both of it. I can barely sleep at night, lose my appetite, my faith and spirits like scatter, turn into dust and fly away to nowhere.
It's been 6 months and the pain still the same. And it's not all about the pain, but the emptiness too. I lost everything I used to had all at once.
I lost everything but love. Well, at least I don't lost that. I cannot imagine what my life would be then. Maybe I already dead literally.
It's funny cause I don't know what to say. If I say, "I lost everything I had." That's not entirely true cause my relationship with Red getting stronger.
If I say, "I lost all my friends and I feel so, so lonely." But Red is my bestfriend and we are on the phone everyday.
It may sounds greedy which I think I'm not cause I think it's logic if you were in my position, but Red and all of my friends are not the same. It's different. He's the guy (and soon become man) I really loves and nobody could take his place, ever, and all I want is stay right next to him like forever and a day. But I'm a 19 years old girl and still need girlfriends to hug. They have been so supportive to me but they... are they. They won't ask me how I'm doing continually like Red did. Well they don't love me with L for the way they look at me.
Maybe I'm lonely cause I miss all mt girlfriend.
But thanks God, I'm the lucky one to have the best boyfriend ever like Red ;) Still, there's something left to be thankful for.
In the same time, I try to hold on.
It feels like falling slowly, torn apart into pieces or maybe both of it. I can barely sleep at night, lose my appetite, my faith and spirits like scatter, turn into dust and fly away to nowhere.
It's been 6 months and the pain still the same. And it's not all about the pain, but the emptiness too. I lost everything I used to had all at once.
I lost everything but love. Well, at least I don't lost that. I cannot imagine what my life would be then. Maybe I already dead literally.
It's funny cause I don't know what to say. If I say, "I lost everything I had." That's not entirely true cause my relationship with Red getting stronger.
If I say, "I lost all my friends and I feel so, so lonely." But Red is my bestfriend and we are on the phone everyday.
It may sounds greedy which I think I'm not cause I think it's logic if you were in my position, but Red and all of my friends are not the same. It's different. He's the guy (and soon become man) I really loves and nobody could take his place, ever, and all I want is stay right next to him like forever and a day. But I'm a 19 years old girl and still need girlfriends to hug. They have been so supportive to me but they... are they. They won't ask me how I'm doing continually like Red did. Well they don't love me with L for the way they look at me.
Maybe I'm lonely cause I miss all mt girlfriend.
But thanks God, I'm the lucky one to have the best boyfriend ever like Red ;) Still, there's something left to be thankful for.
11 August 2011
10 August 2011
Katie Kirkpatrick's Story: The Cancer Bride
Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, held off cancer to celebrate the happiest day of her life. Katie had chased cancer, once only to have it return-to clog her lungs and grab hold of her heart. Breathing was difficult now, she had to use oxygen. The pain in her back was so intense it broke through the morphine that was supposed to act as a shield. Her organs were shutting down but it would not stop her from marrying Nick Godwin, 23, who was in love with Katie since 11th grade.
Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, holds some of her daily medication for several minutes before taking them as she waves in and out of sleep because of the morphine she takes while sitting in the livingroom of the familly home in Metamora on January 11, 2005. Katie has cancer of the lungs.
Katie is in a lot of pain in the days leading to her wedding taking morphine and numerous medications to help her. Niki Kirkpatrick,right, took a leave of abscence from work so she can take care of her daugther Katie who now needs constant assistance.
Nick Godwin, 23, left, takes a moment of rest while his bride Katie Kirkpatrick, right, gets an intravenous procedure to reduce the amount of fluids her body is retaining at McLaren Regional Medical Center in Flint on January 12, 2005. Nick Godwin who works night shift as a Lapeer County Sheriff's deputy took Katie to the medical center after a night's work, three days before their wedding.
Katie Kirkpatrick walks past a photograph of herself when she was homecoming queen at Lapeer East High School where she also was a co-valedictorian. the photograph sits on a table in her familly's home livingroom in Metamora on January 11, 2005.
Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, puts on some hearings a few minutes before walking down the aisle to marry Nick Godwin, 23, who she had known since 11th grade, at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.
Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, and Nick Godwin, 23, cuddle up for a moment while waiting for the wedding photographer to get ready after getting married at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.
Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, and Nick Godwin, 23, a Lapeer County Sheriff's deputy whom she first met when he was in 11th grade, get married at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.
Dave Kirkpatrick gives the thumbs up to his new son in law while admiring the couple with his wife Niki Kirkpatrick, right, after Nick and Katie got married at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.
Katie Kirkpatrick Godwin, right, gets serenaded by her new husband Nick Godwin, and his best men during the wedding party on the dance floor at Boulder Point Golf Club and Banquet Center in Oxford, MI, on Saturday January 15, 2005.
Katie Kirkpatrick Godwin, center, rests for a few moments during her wedding party at Boulder Point Golf Club and Banquet Center in Oxford, MI, on Saturday January 15, 2005. Katie was exhausted. Her face looked as white as her gown.
Five days later, Katie died. She did not let sickness stop her from living, take away the hope or faith that made her believe she had a future. She had a lovely wedding and she had love and she gave love and love doesn' t die. And that is how Katie beat cancer.
Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, holds some of her daily medication for several minutes before taking them as she waves in and out of sleep because of the morphine she takes while sitting in the livingroom of the familly home in Metamora on January 11, 2005. Katie has cancer of the lungs.
Katie is in a lot of pain in the days leading to her wedding taking morphine and numerous medications to help her. Niki Kirkpatrick,right, took a leave of abscence from work so she can take care of her daugther Katie who now needs constant assistance.
Nick Godwin, 23, left, takes a moment of rest while his bride Katie Kirkpatrick, right, gets an intravenous procedure to reduce the amount of fluids her body is retaining at McLaren Regional Medical Center in Flint on January 12, 2005. Nick Godwin who works night shift as a Lapeer County Sheriff's deputy took Katie to the medical center after a night's work, three days before their wedding.
Katie Kirkpatrick walks past a photograph of herself when she was homecoming queen at Lapeer East High School where she also was a co-valedictorian. the photograph sits on a table in her familly's home livingroom in Metamora on January 11, 2005.
Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, puts on some hearings a few minutes before walking down the aisle to marry Nick Godwin, 23, who she had known since 11th grade, at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.
Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, and Nick Godwin, 23, cuddle up for a moment while waiting for the wedding photographer to get ready after getting married at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.
Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, and Nick Godwin, 23, a Lapeer County Sheriff's deputy whom she first met when he was in 11th grade, get married at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.
Dave Kirkpatrick gives the thumbs up to his new son in law while admiring the couple with his wife Niki Kirkpatrick, right, after Nick and Katie got married at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.
Katie Kirkpatrick Godwin, right, gets serenaded by her new husband Nick Godwin, and his best men during the wedding party on the dance floor at Boulder Point Golf Club and Banquet Center in Oxford, MI, on Saturday January 15, 2005.
Katie Kirkpatrick Godwin, center, rests for a few moments during her wedding party at Boulder Point Golf Club and Banquet Center in Oxford, MI, on Saturday January 15, 2005. Katie was exhausted. Her face looked as white as her gown.
Five days later, Katie died. She did not let sickness stop her from living, take away the hope or faith that made her believe she had a future. She had a lovely wedding and she had love and she gave love and love doesn' t die. And that is how Katie beat cancer.
9 August 2011
Red's current favorite song
meskipun aku di surga mungkin aku tak bahagia
bahagiaku tak sempurna bila itu tanpamu
lama sudah kau menemani langkah kaki di sepanjang
perjalanan hidup penuh cerita
kau adalah bagian hidupku dan akupun menjadi bagian
dalam hidupmu yang tak terpisah
sendiri aku tak bisa seimbang
apa jadinya bila kau tak di sisi
meskipun aku di surga mungkin aku tak bahagia
bahagiaku tak sempurna bila itu tanpamu
aku ingin kau menjadi bidadariku di sana
tempat terakhir melabuhkan hidup di keabadian
bila nanti aku kehilangan, mungkin itu hanya sesaat
karena ku yakin kita kan bertemu lagi
Not now, maybe someday we will.
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