Do you remember my last post? A song that I post became a reality. Red didn't read that, of course, but he did what I wish he didn't. Taylor sang, "Baby, don't you break my heart slow". And Red did. He did it to mine.
My heart didn't break so easily, but it's crooked and it's hurting me pretty much. Red makes me believe that I was worth to have, worth to love after all happen with Giraffe: my broken heart, countless tears, sleepless nights thinking about him and fights without his attention. Red endure couple of big injury in me, I thought, and I was going to have him everything he needs: affection, embrace, spirit, hope and me by his side in the hardest moment.
But Red slipped away.. and made some fatal error. He choose me in the end, though I didn't care who he actually wants in his arms. I never persuade him to choose me because deep inside, I actually still care about Red. I want the best for someone I care about, my best friend, even the best thing for him wasn't me.
The tornado has over and we can sit in calm right now. I forgive him so easily, cause it's sad to angry too long and it's kinda suck to avoid. What he has done means nothing right now. But still I wonder who's on his mind while his gaze not look at me..
I wonder how could I make it through. I wonder if Vanessa William's Save The Best For Last would be a good song in the end of this story..
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