Couple days ago I just realized how much this blog has changed. It's like a journal full of my lovelife, not my interest and that's kinda boring, I think. Anyway Red complaint for the English I always use here so I decided to make my own, more personal journal.
Love Long Distance is all about Red, me, thoughts about us and maybe something more. It's about love and it's Indonesian. So Red, if you read this, just click the link, dear :)
4 August 2011
3 August 2011
2 August 2011
Plain White T's - 1, 2, 3, 4
1-2-1-2-3-4
Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
1-2-3-4
I love you
(I love you)
I love you
p.s.
A song for Red.
1 August 2011
Burden
Life is pretty simple. But no one said it would be easy. Sometimes I wonder why it has to be so complicated. People in my ages didn't get what I've been through and somehow it's not fair.
I'm half dying but barely still breathing.
It's been 6 months and nothing's easier. It's even harder. It's totally sucker.
I wonder why I'm still breathing, wonder why I'm still alive without wanting to continue it any longer, wonder why I'm even born if I got to live in big misery like this. It's just crazy how I have to survived in place named home when the atmosphere here's not better than first and second world war.
It's tiring and sad, pathetic, hell and well, I'm living in the hell of the earth! Your family hates you but you gotta listen what they said as if it written in the stars, they forbid to hangout or do what I want to, I gotta stay at home ALL DAY LONG from March till tonight, I'm stuck here and it feels like I'll never ever go out from here anymore. And if that's happen, I actually prefer to live in the street and be a beggar than here.
There's a moment, a real one, when I think to just end all of this pain in a stupid way. The burden is crazy and I'm really done.
But the truth is not like I want to die. I actually wants still living this world, but I wonder how to still alive in this messy situation. I don't wanna die, I simply don't know how to live.
And when I feel like wanting to be disappear, I actually wants to be found. I want someone knows my lies when I said I'm fine, someone who would see me through, saying how much I've been trying and share my pain with them.
I'm tired and God, please take this burden from me.
I'm half dying but barely still breathing.
It's been 6 months and nothing's easier. It's even harder. It's totally sucker.
I wonder why I'm still breathing, wonder why I'm still alive without wanting to continue it any longer, wonder why I'm even born if I got to live in big misery like this. It's just crazy how I have to survived in place named home when the atmosphere here's not better than first and second world war.
It's tiring and sad, pathetic, hell and well, I'm living in the hell of the earth! Your family hates you but you gotta listen what they said as if it written in the stars, they forbid to hangout or do what I want to, I gotta stay at home ALL DAY LONG from March till tonight, I'm stuck here and it feels like I'll never ever go out from here anymore. And if that's happen, I actually prefer to live in the street and be a beggar than here.
There's a moment, a real one, when I think to just end all of this pain in a stupid way. The burden is crazy and I'm really done.
But the truth is not like I want to die. I actually wants still living this world, but I wonder how to still alive in this messy situation. I don't wanna die, I simply don't know how to live.
And when I feel like wanting to be disappear, I actually wants to be found. I want someone knows my lies when I said I'm fine, someone who would see me through, saying how much I've been trying and share my pain with them.
I'm tired and God, please take this burden from me.
Crap
I really miss that place, you know?
My bed, the air, the water, how it feels when you wake up and the sun shines crawling through the window, the freedom I had to decide on my own, the happiness, the cheers and laughter, passion and pleasure on my works, even the street.
And yes, I'm willing to give up everything or do anything to have it back. Things I should have still right now.
People say we can turn back the time. I knew how suck when they told you this for things you had, things you wish you could get it back.
My bed, the air, the water, how it feels when you wake up and the sun shines crawling through the window, the freedom I had to decide on my own, the happiness, the cheers and laughter, passion and pleasure on my works, even the street.
And yes, I'm willing to give up everything or do anything to have it back. Things I should have still right now.
People say we can turn back the time. I knew how suck when they told you this for things you had, things you wish you could get it back.
The Band Perry - If I Die Young
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Uh oh, uh oh
Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time
And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holdin' my hand there's a boy here in town says he'll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had, just enough time
So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done
A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need 'em, oh
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had just enough time
So put on your best boys, and I'll wear my pearls
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